Christianity without discipleship is always Christianity without Christ. --Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Hey my Beautiful people!

I got an email from Emily this morning and she would like to share with you something that lifts her spirits. She says, "It Really Shares A Good Message And I Think All Of You Guys Will Enjoy It." Here It Is :

Ragman, by Walter Wangerin, Jr.

I saw a strange sight. I stumbled upon a story most strange, like nothing my life, my street sense, my sly tongue had ever prepared me for. Hush, child. Hush, now, and I will tell it to you. Even before the dawn one Friday morning I noticed a young man, handsome and strong, walking the alleys of our City. He was pulling an old cart filled with clothes both bright and new, and he was calling in a clear, tenor voice: "Rags!" Ah, the air was foul and the first light filthy to be crossed by such sweet music. "Rags! New rags for old! I take your tired rags! Rags!"

"Now, this is a wonder," I thought to myself, for the man stood six-feet-four, and his arms were like tree limbs, hard and muscular, and his eyes flashed intelligence. Could he find no better job than this, to be a ragman in the inner city? I followed him. My curiosity drove me. And I wasn't disappointed. Soon the Ragman saw a woman sitting on her back porch. She was sobbing into a handkerchief, sighing, and shedding a thousand tears. Her knees and elbows made a sad X. Her shoulders shook. Her heart was breaking. The Ragman stopped his cart. Quietly, he walked to the woman, stepping round tin cans, dead toys, and Pampers. "Give me your rag," he said so gently, "and I'll give you another." He slipped the handkerchief from her eyes. She looked up, and he laid across her palm a linen cloth so clean and new that it shined. She blinked from the gift to the giver. Then, as he began to pull his cart again, the Ragman did a strange thing: he put her stained handkerchief to his own face; and then HE began to weep, to sob as grievously as she had done, his shoulders shaking. Yet she was left without a tear.

"This IS a wonder," I breathed to myself, and I followed the sobbing Ragman like a child who cannot turn away from mystery.

"Rags! Rags! New rags for old!" In a little while, when the sky showed grey behind the rooftops and I could see the shredded curtains hanging out black windows, the Ragman came upon a girl whose head was wrapped in a bandage, whose eyes were empty. Blood soaked her bandage. A single line of blood ran down her cheek. Now the tall Ragman looked upon this child with pity, and he drew a lovely yellow bonnet from his cart.

"Give me your rag," he said, tracing his own line on her cheek, "and I'll give you mine."

The child could only gaze at him while he loosened the bandage, removed it, and tied it to his own head. The bonnet he set on hers. And I gasped at what I saw: for with the bandage went the wound! Against his brow it ran a darker, more substantial blood - his own!

"Rags! Rags! I take old rags!" cried the sobbing, bleeding, strong, intelligent Ragman.

The sun hurt both the sky, now, and my eyes; the Ragman seemed more and more to hurry.

"Are you going to work?" he asked a man who leaned against a telephone pole. The man shook his head. The Ragman pressed him: "Do you have a job?"

"Are you crazy?" sneered the other.

He pulled away from the pole, revealing the right sleeve of his jacket - flat, the cuff stuffed into the pocket. He had no arm.

"So," said the Ragman. "Give me your jacket, and I'll give you mine." Such quiet authority in his voice!

The one-armed man took off his jacket. So did the Ragman - and I trembled at what I saw: for the Ragman's arm stayed in its sleeve, and when the other put it on he had two good arms, thick as tree limbs; but the Ragman had only one.

"Go to work," he said.

After that he found a drunk, lying unconscious beneath an army blanket, and old man, hunched, wizened, and sick. He took that blanket and wrapped it round himself, but for the drunk he left new clothes. And now I had to run to keep up with the Ragman. Though he was weeping uncontrollably, and bleeding freely at the forehead, pulling his cart with one arm, stumbling for drunkenness, falling again and again, exhausted, old, old, and sick, yet he went with terrible speed. On spider's legs he skittered through the alleys of the City, this mile and the next, until he came to its limits, and then he rushed beyond.

I wept to see the change in this man. I hurt to see his sorrow. And yet I needed to see where he was going in such haste, perhaps to know what drove him so.

The little old Ragman - he came to a landfill. He came to the garbage pits. And then I wanted to help him in what he did, but I hung back, hiding. He climbed a hill. With tormented labor he cleared a little space on that hill.

Then he sighed.

He lay down.

He pillowed his head on a handkerchief and a jacket. He covered his bones with an army blanket.

And he died.

Oh, how I cried to witness that death! I slumped in a junked car and wailed and mourned as one who has no hope - because I had come to love the Ragman. Every other face had faded in the wonder of this man, and I cherished him; but he died. I sobbed myself to sleep.

I did not know - how could I know? - that I slept through Friday night and Saturday and its night, too. But then, on Sunday morning, I was wakened by a violence. Light - pure, hard, demanding light - slammed against my sour face, and I blinked, and I looked, and I saw the last and the first wonder of all. There was the Ragman, folding the blanket most carefully, a scar on his forehead, but alive! And, besides that, healthy! There was no sign of sorrow nor of age, and all the rags that he had gathered shined for cleanliness.

Well, then I lowered my head and trembling for all that I had seen, I myself walked up to the Ragman. I told him my name with shame, for I was a sorry figure next to him. Then I took off all my clothes in that place, and I said to him with dear yearning in my voice: "Dress me."

He dressed me. My Lord, he put new rags on me, and I am a wonder beside him. The Ragman, the Ragman, the Christ!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Moved By the Spirit

I have found that in the past while the Spirit has been moving in me in a deep and profound way. It has been a long time of not really feeling God and having to move on faith to make sure I stayed as close as I could to Him. I have found there are times that I can be not expecting to be struck by God then I find myself moved to tears by His love and presence!

One of these such times I was in church the weekend before camp. I was a little late (punctuality is not one of my strong characteristics) and worship was just ending and announcements were beginning. I go to church alone most Sundays, which can be a very lonely time and I find if I am not careful that can lead to a bit of bitterness while I am at church. I was standing in the back of the church by myself, while the pastor lead the congregation in communion (It is a big church so it takes awhile). I stood feeling bitter and thinking they would forget about us latecomers and single people and debated whether I would even take communion this weekend. Was I in a place to accept it? As the ushers brought the grape juice and crackers to us it was as if I had no choice but to partake. As I took each in my hands I instantly began to weep – tears rolling down my face and neck and all! The moment I accepted communion that Sunday I had an image in my mind of Ireland where there are place you can feel the connection between heaven and earth and felt so loved and cherished it consumed me and I cried at the beauty of it all!

On the Sunday after this last camp was finished I was chatting with a good friend and fellow camp worker. I think we were talking about serving and why we serve (as was taught in Mentorship that weekend). I was saying how we need to be willing to listen to God and to respond to His call for us. Then I realized the very noble call on our lives as God’s children and followers of Jesus and I struggles to speak because I was so moved by it (and the fact that I, again, began to weep!). God is love and we are called to be love to others. How noble is that? That our job it to BE love? Is there a more noble call our there? Is there any other fight worth fighting? Personally, I don’t think so. I have noticed lately how often our own pride and selfishness leads us into conflict with others. Any other fight leads to ourselves and if it only the self that was worth fighting for how horrible this world would be!!

I have been praying since than for God to help me to have great love for the people has brought into my life: my family, my co-workers, my beloved babies. If you ask Him to fill you with love for others, He will. I would rather love than be bitter with people or enter into petty arguments that can fracture friendships. Try it. I think you’ll be amazed my what He will bring you!

Sending love, blessings and prayers to all!

- shelley

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Hello friends!
If there is something you would like to see taught at the next CLTD SYC (school year camp) pop an email off to me and we will look into it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R2MZN7ludRs&feature=related

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hey friends!
SO... CAMP WEEKEND!
This weekend those of you in Sojourn will be learning about some of our faith roots. We will be digging into some of the foundations of our faith's roots, considering biblical action and consequence and even eating a bit of food.
The Mentorship crew will will be looking deeper into discipleship with Phil, Frank and Tyler.
I mentioned awhile ago that it might be a good idea to bring a mug of your own to camp if you are a hot beverage drinker. Also, remember to bring your COATS, Bibles and your applications for summer!!
YAY SUMMER!!
I am also wondering if anyone actually reads this, so the first 3 people who email me I will give a $5 Starbucks card.
YAY STARBUCKS!!
I hope all is well! Remember, we are here if ever you need us!
Blessings to all!
-shelley

Friday, January 22, 2010

I don’t understand why

I don’t understand why

if offered the choice between hope and despair one would choose despair,

when given the choice between life and death, someone would choose death,

when faced with doing good or evil one would choose evil,

that someone could choose to hurt rather than help,

or violence over loving.

How can anyone choose to make the world a little worse rather than better,

serve oneself when one could serve many,

choose to willfully hurt themselves over health,

insult others instead of compliment?

We can choose to step on those around us or lift up those who need a hand.

We get to decide between stupidity and wisdom,

and making friends or enemies.

We get to choose to accept rejection or forgiveness,

offer grace or judgment.

Only we get to decide the kind of person we are going to be.

What are you going to choose?

Monday, January 18, 2010

Hey friends!
I wanted to share a video I found with you: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5WCTltHR-Hg&feature=rec-fresh+div-r-25.
I hope you are all well! stay in touch and we'll see you soon!
-shelley

Friday, January 8, 2010

So? Where's the hoax?

Hello, my fine feathered friends!!
Today while I was breaking from making the 2010 CLTD Reference Form to eat my lunch I hopped onto youtube, as I often do and I found this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlfKdbWwruY. It is called Where the Hell is Matt? It is a cool video, shot in several countries, of Matt dancing.
Then I watched this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ogcqFaNbah4 where Matt 'explains' how the video was made.
As I was watching the second one it occurred to me how we have to be so very careful what we accept as truth in our world today. Just because you read something on line does not mean it is true. Someone will argue that one thing is white while someone else will argue it is black with equal passion.
So? How do we discern truth? I can tell you this much - somethings have far more beneath the surface than we first recognize. Don't accept blindly, my friends! Dig for truth in all you experience. I heard at a conference I was at last month that every commercial tells a lie - we just have to discover what that lie is.
I think we also need to ask ourselves if we are believing something because we really want to even though deep down we know it is wrong. Like this one: "Pot isn't bad for you - it is natural." Sorry peeps, no matter how much you might want to believe it, it does not make it true! Or how about this one: "Camp is for sissies!" Ummm... no. People might try to tell you that BUT THEY ARE DEAD WRONG!!
I miss you all and I hope your new year is starting out well!! I can't wait to see you again! Keep in touch, ok?
-shelley
PS. just need to show off my niece and nephew - aren't they great?!